Her And You

Its all blissful in the beginning,
She slowly grows onto you,
To her errors you turn a blind eye,
You chose to forget what you always knew.

You begin to care so much,
That for her caring you pine,
The parameters for actions she sets,
Your emotions by them you define.

She tells you what is wrong to her,
Though it might be right for you,
You are only allowed to wonder,
Why things happen the way they do.

You are stuck in a spider's web,
You escape one,another one she spins,
She will force you to give up,
Without herself ever giving in.

But you still stay behind,
With her are you bound to be?
Or chose to stay back because,
Nowhere else youself could you see.

You always have the choice to make,
To walk the path that is going to be,
Dont force yourself to follow her rules,
Learn to defy the Society.

Where are we?

Life is so damn unpredictable....Sitting in front of PC at 02:25 hrs,listening to Chris Brown-with you(which is the awesomest-if there is such a word-song,i have heard in a while),why am I putting up a blog entry?It is just that the past 2 months have taught me more about myself and life in general than I ever cared to know.It is funny and ironical because I knew these things all along,I was just a cynic who was cynical about his own ideas.

Lesson1
There are two ways to go about things,either be totally selfless or be absolutely selfish..you cant be selfless for your own gratification.It only leads to an imbalance in your equation with people where you feel you are giving more and recieving less.
Bottomline:Find ways to extend relationships without extending yourselves beyond a particular limit.

Lesson 2
The futilty of all planning!Life takes you where you are destined to be,you just go along.It is like a river where one moves along the current,but still you have to put up an effort to stay afloat,to move forward faster.I have truly started believing,"Only the unplanned works".I guess everything in my life(apart from being born) has been due to something unplanned.
Bottomline:Be certain about the uncertainity

Lesson 3
As Chetan Bhagat put it,"Life screws you right when you feel you have it all figured out".Stop trying to figure things,specifically about human emotions.There are so many permutations and combinations,that the odds that you live in a fools' paradise are pretty high.Base big decisions on concrete facts.
Bottomline:Stop assuming things

Lesson 4
If you are still reading...being strong(mentally and emotionally) may make people like you,but people only get close to each other when there is an element of vulnerability.No need to elaborate this further
Bottomline:Stop being a He-Man/Rani Lakshmi Bai all the time

Lesson 5
You need to learn to voice your own needs to the people close to you because if you dont you start resenting the people you love.Even if they dont/cant do anything about it,atleast they wont mind.If you are weak,you feel good,if you are strong,you make them feel good.
Bottomline:Those who matter dont mind,and those who mind dont matter.

Where Am I?--Official Rant

The writing on the wall is clear..there is but one path to follow...the expressway...all the diversions,the distractions,the disturbances have been removed,though with no consent of mine...every step leads to a destination where I would have given up everything else,to be..yet what I expect to encounter is disenchantment and disappointment and despite all d upheavels leading me to where I am now,there is a certain peace of mind ...still there is something amiss because this serenity doesnt have a definite cause...may be I just dont care enough anymore or may be it is the acceptance of the fact that things are what they were always supposed to be.

PRESENT OF HOPE

I was scared of being alone,
Because I had no one by my side,
There was a storm raging on,
I hadn't a place to hide.

There was nothing to hold on to,
I just kept falling down,
I kept walking around,
the streets of a long dead town.

I let everything slip away,
Thinking they won't get far from me,
Time has brought me so much ahead,
when I turn back,there is nothing to see.

Past became sanctuary for present,
It was the oasis in life's desert,
It was believing what had brought me down,
Could now heal my hurt.

I chose to ignore the present,
Thinking next moment it will become the past,
I had forgotten that maybe,
I could do something till it lasts.

This moment can give hope to the next,
That all miseries will be gone,
Life maybe at its worst now,
But it's the darkest before dawn.


This is for all the people who have given me hope when thing have been screwed up!!

RUNAWAY'S ROAD

This isn't as gud,but apart from the bourne series n lord of the rings,the sequels have hardly ever matched upto the originals :) (for the uninitiated read the poem RUNAWAY first)

Maybe it has just been a while,
But a lifetime it seems,
As he walks everything fades away,
Like an early morning dream.

Keep moving he told himself,
It doesnt matter what you have done or could do,
All the matters is,at this moment,
What is supposed to be done by you.

So he has no dreams for his future,
No regrets about his past,
But what he has at this moment,
He wishes for an eternity it could last.

A conscience that wouldn't question him,
If he ever fell down again,
But will tell him 'get up,trot ahead',
While it silently soothes his pain.

This spirit becomes his new strength,
As he comes to face with the same situation,
The realization of the fact that,
Maybe his journeys are his destination.

A CLASS OF 37

This one is for all the dudes n chicks of Class 12 comps.most of u wud hav read it but guess another read will remind u of d times in apeejay(we were the kings and queens of good times),it always does to me!!Cheers folks,u made the Apeejay experience worthwhile!Sorry if any of you guys have changed,but this is how u were back in 12th!

A class of thirty seven,
11 ladies and 26 gentlemen,
It's unique in every way,
This is Class xii-A.

The head girl Ipshita and Chaitanya the head boy,
Priyanshi who thinks she is the Helen of Troy,
Suraj and Pawan are necessary nonsense in everone's eyes,
And there's Parijat who thinks he is really wise.

Aziz who is the Maradona of the class,
Shruti always thinking of integration,bonding and mass,
Aman is the class's Munnabhai,
Akshat won't leave the books till he dies.

We have the comp whiz-kid Abhishek,
Vaibhav, the worst pjs he'll make,
Kaushani and Sandhya seem to be Siamese Twins,
Rajasik's wise words should be thrown in dustbins!

Nidhi who always tells wrong homework,
Kasturi with a Maths book is forever stuck,
Prasanjeet loves everything he can eat,
And there's irodov solution manual Debjit.

Nikhil is the jack of all trades,
A thing such as Shubham God never again made,
There's the 'Champ' Prisoomit,
And Rishi who excels in word and wit.

Simba is Santa of Santa-Banta fame,
Aayush has a word to say about every game,
Saransh is the 'thakur' of 'choley',
Shamik of beating the best,is forever finding ways.

There is the 'son of batman',comics king Jagan,
Hrishikesh is the only one with his homework always done,
Naseem is the class's friendliest person,
And for 'un'wisecracks Prateek is the one.

Anjana's voice never reaches me,
While Divya to the poet is an unknown entity,
Poor Arpun has always got problems with the big guys,
While Vishwas only speaks in hows,whats and whys.

We have the latest student Sonam,
And yours truly for the morning assembly is the last to come,
Though together we might be a nuisance,noisy and loud,
But to be a where we are now,everyone will sometime be proud.

RUNAWAY

This is my 3rd lengthiest poetry to date!!!!!!!!!!
He walked on his lonely path,
His past he didn't miss,
He was treading the sands,
Leaving behind his oasis.

He knew the word had spread,
People called him insane,
He just smiled at it all,
He knew explaining was vain.

His wounds had all healed,
But he was wishing the pain would stay,
That is why he had to leave,
He decided to be a runaway.

He knew it wont be easy,
But the pain would kill the pain,
He prided himself for being strong,
But his strength had become his bane.

Courage was never not giving up,
It was knowing when to fight,
He now realize that letting go,
Could sometimes just be right.

He just looks at road ahead,
The destinations could wait,
His steps have grown resolute,
Since he made truce with his fate.