ESTRANGED

We didnt wish for it to happen,
But it all ended in pain,
After that we never wanted to,
But here we are again.

You walking out on me,
was probably my worst fear.
My heart was all shattered,
But I couldn't shed a tear.

Now my eyes are wet,
But it's just the falling rain,
Lovers we were,
now we seem to be estranged.

Once we talked without speaking,
Now even words aren't suffice.
I couldn't wait to be with you once,
Now it's so difficult to be just nice.

It doesn't hurt me anymore,
of those wounds I carry no scars,
We seperated at that crossroad,
And now I've walked too far.

It all just seems someone else's life,
No reason to stay,no words to say,
Was wrong when I said we are estranged,
In truth we are strangers on our own way

Her And You

Its all blissful in the beginning,
She slowly grows onto you,
To her errors you turn a blind eye,
You chose to forget what you always knew.

You begin to care so much,
That for her caring you pine,
The parameters for actions she sets,
Your emotions by them you define.

She tells you what is wrong to her,
Though it might be right for you,
You are only allowed to wonder,
Why things happen the way they do.

You are stuck in a spider's web,
You escape one,another one she spins,
She will force you to give up,
Without herself ever giving in.

But you still stay behind,
With her are you bound to be?
Or chose to stay back because,
Nowhere else youself could you see.

You always have the choice to make,
To walk the path that is going to be,
Dont force yourself to follow her rules,
Learn to defy the Society.

Where are we?

Life is so damn unpredictable....Sitting in front of PC at 02:25 hrs,listening to Chris Brown-with you(which is the awesomest-if there is such a word-song,i have heard in a while),why am I putting up a blog entry?It is just that the past 2 months have taught me more about myself and life in general than I ever cared to know.It is funny and ironical because I knew these things all along,I was just a cynic who was cynical about his own ideas.

Lesson1
There are two ways to go about things,either be totally selfless or be absolutely selfish..you cant be selfless for your own gratification.It only leads to an imbalance in your equation with people where you feel you are giving more and recieving less.
Bottomline:Find ways to extend relationships without extending yourselves beyond a particular limit.

Lesson 2
The futilty of all planning!Life takes you where you are destined to be,you just go along.It is like a river where one moves along the current,but still you have to put up an effort to stay afloat,to move forward faster.I have truly started believing,"Only the unplanned works".I guess everything in my life(apart from being born) has been due to something unplanned.
Bottomline:Be certain about the uncertainity

Lesson 3
As Chetan Bhagat put it,"Life screws you right when you feel you have it all figured out".Stop trying to figure things,specifically about human emotions.There are so many permutations and combinations,that the odds that you live in a fools' paradise are pretty high.Base big decisions on concrete facts.
Bottomline:Stop assuming things

Lesson 4
If you are still reading...being strong(mentally and emotionally) may make people like you,but people only get close to each other when there is an element of vulnerability.No need to elaborate this further
Bottomline:Stop being a He-Man/Rani Lakshmi Bai all the time

Lesson 5
You need to learn to voice your own needs to the people close to you because if you dont you start resenting the people you love.Even if they dont/cant do anything about it,atleast they wont mind.If you are weak,you feel good,if you are strong,you make them feel good.
Bottomline:Those who matter dont mind,and those who mind dont matter.

Where Am I?--Official Rant

The writing on the wall is clear..there is but one path to follow...the expressway...all the diversions,the distractions,the disturbances have been removed,though with no consent of mine...every step leads to a destination where I would have given up everything else,to be..yet what I expect to encounter is disenchantment and disappointment and despite all d upheavels leading me to where I am now,there is a certain peace of mind ...still there is something amiss because this serenity doesnt have a definite cause...may be I just dont care enough anymore or may be it is the acceptance of the fact that things are what they were always supposed to be.